英语翻译I thought I will get a break after the ex

英语翻译
I thought I will get a break after the exams are over but apparently not because I am taking summer schoolit is more insane than anything I've ever done before,so I have no idea how to keep up. As for our relationship,I duno...I just think that the long distance part of it is not working well...so I either be with u or not be with u,and that's quite an awkward position to be in for a guy if you know wat I meanplus there is no way to compensate for our difference in time...sigh.makes me wana cry Im sure there are lots of other nice guys out there that you can seek,as much as we love each other,I just don't think its gona work out over half way across the world and 4 years of not seeing each other. I know wat you are thinking right now,our fate just doenst seem to want us to be togetherand you'll prob thinking that its been 4 years already and nothing's gona change and u'll definitely wait till I come back,and yes I will come back but.omg,I duno. Im going to hate myself forever for this but tis done and tis not be changed.Right now I can picture me and you crying in each other's embrace and me giving u one last kiss on the forhead before we depart... Sigh,Im not sure what your final decision will be on this but hopefully we can still be friends?Im overwhelmed with almost everything happening in life,and maybe that's why north americans are all getting cancer cuz we're all so overwhelmed. Over the years,you've always supported me,making me happy whenever I read your emailsI've treated you like me sister,except closer,so watever u are thinking,can we still treat each other as siblings? I duno wats worse,ignoring you forever or giving you an insight.I duno wat to say.I want to cry but no tears come out.because tears are traits of the past...So raise your head and look forwardour futures are as bright as the morning sunforgive me once and for all.    哪个好人给我翻译一下!准确一点!每一句都要准确的翻译啊!

我本以为考完会有时间空出来,但是显然我错了,因为我暑假还得上课.这比我以前做的任何事都疯狂,所以我根本不知道如何坚持下去.至于我们的关系,我不知道...我只是觉得异地恋的部分不大好.所以我要么和你在一起,要么不和你在一起,这对于一个男生来说是个尴尬的状态,如果你懂我的意思.而且时差的问题没办法解决,唉,我真想哭.我相信外面一定有很多好男生是你可以喜欢的,虽然我们很相爱,我真觉得我们不能继续了——被半个世界隔开,而且四年没有见面了.我知道你在想什么,命运立意要将我们分开,你大概认为反正已经四年了,以后也没有什么不同,你也会等我回来,而我的确是会回来,可是...天啊,我不知道,我会为此恨我自己的,可是已经做了,无法挽回了...现在我能想像我们哭着拥抱彼此,我在离别前最后一次吻你的额...唉.我不知道你的最终决定会是什么,可是我希望我们还能是朋友.我快被生活中的一切压垮了,也许那就是北美人都得了癌症的原因——因为我们都崩溃了.这么多年来,你一直支持我,你每次的电邮都让我开心,我一直把你像妹妹一样对待,只是更亲,所以不管你在想什么,我们还能当兄妹吗?我不知道哪个更坏——永远不理你还是直接告诉你...我不知道说什么...我想哭,可是眼泪流不出来...因为眼泪是过去的痕迹.就抬起你的头吧,向前看.我们的未来比早晨的阳光更明亮.最后一次原谅我吧.