英语翻译She did not tell anyone where she was going.Children who

英语翻译
She did not tell anyone where she was going.
Children who do not know she went to something done,come back.I have become accustomed to her own way,and I promised my father to live a good life.Calm acceptance of her leave,I think overall there are days,she would come back tired,I can just wait,this wait,not too long.But this time I was wrong,she let me first class on the other for four years.Four years,in vain.
Four years,enough to forget a person.All about her all,all ignored.Do not care about a lot.Others do not care about a strange look,do not care about the students laughed,not because there is no human to prepare their own breakfast or dinner and sad.My life is always different from everyone else,this at a very early I know.Life is still living,will not change a person's sorrows and joys.
In my opinion,even if she is no longer there,I can still ride the quiet life.Cherish everything we have,and Thanksgiving.I could not ashamed of her departure.Must remain within the magnanimous.Indeed is the case,living in many cases,just their own.Departure and the arrival of a person actually does not affect anything.Even as she left the life,still continues.I believe that time,I do not hate her.Continue to believe that she loves me.
Many feelings,but the illusion of ourselves.From their point of view I believe that he is loved.And that this love would have been there.But,just for ourselves the illusion of textile lies.All feelings are just their imagination.As I believe in the four years of the same.My illusion,sustained for four years

她从未告诉任何人她要去哪里.
不知道她去完成什么事的孩子们,回来了.我已经习惯于她的做法,并且我已经向我的父亲保证了要好好生活.冷静地接受了她的离开,我认为经过这些日子,她将会疲惫地回来,我需要做的只是等待,这等待,也不会太长.但这次我错了,她把我放在另一个first class（可有多种翻译,应结合上下文）放了四年.四年了,全是徒劳.
四年,足够忘记一个人.关于她的一切,都已经被我忽略.不用在意太多.他人不会在意一张陌生的面孔.不用在意学生的嘲笑,并不是因为没有人会为自己准备早餐或者午餐,还有悲伤.我的生活总是与他人不同,我很早就意识到了这点.生活依然活着,不会改变一个人的悲伤和快乐.
我认为,即使她不再在这里了,我也仍然能过着平静的生活.珍惜我们拥有的一切,并感恩.我不再对她的叛离而感到羞耻.必须在宽容中继续生存.存在的就是真理,在许多事实中活下去,只是他们自己.实际上,一个人的叛离和到达不会影响任何人事.正如她离开之后的生活,仍然继续着.我相信时间,我并不恨她.继续相信着,她爱我.
许多感受,除了我们自身的幻觉.从他们的视角看,我相信他是被爱着的.并且这份爱已经存在于这里.但是,只是为了我们自己织成谎言的幻觉.所有感觉只是他们的想象.正如我在这四年里的始终存在的相信.我的幻觉,持续了四年.
再问： 可以在清晰大体的解释下么 我有点不懂
再答： 你好 这是一篇文字非常优美的英语散文 饱含感情 其中很多意蕴不能用直白的翻译来解释 所以要结合上下文 甚至是全文来品读这段文字 我只是把这些句子翻译出大概的通顺的意思 要解读的话可能有点力不从心 建议你看看上下文哦：）