英语翻译How have you been these days?I have received your messag

英语翻译
How have you been these days?I have received your messages but I am really sorry that I didnot answer them.Even i also donot know what's up with myself.Honestly speaking,I feel regretful,disappionted and pethetic.You know,it's not that easy to exist in such a competive society.I have tried my best to do everything i haft do.But the outcome makes me sorrowful.In the past four years,I have spent most of time on study and made some achievements.I must thank you and all of my best friends.To tell you the truth,I didnot understand you well,so I was too unlucky to lose you.I loved you so much at that time that i was off my trolley.But you are sensible from end to end and it is god-given in some degree.Once i tried to save the love between us.I found it nonsense at last so I give it up.I am not the right person to you and you may not be the right one i'm after.So it took me so long time to forget you.Am I selfish?You told me to forget the bad memories many times and I made it.So I decided to forget you.But you arouse my memory when I make up my mind.So what am I sopposed to do?Can you tell me about it?I think the best way to solve this problem is to lose touch with you since you didnot love me.It is all useless,isn't it?I donot want to waste my time on trifles any more.It's boring ,distracting and overwhelming.I told myself that I would change my mind at once if you are coming to me in the past 2 years.I found it funny and ridiculous.SO it's time to say goodbye.If so,please inform me when you are going to get married.We donot need to get in touch in other time.It is bad for both of us,at least it is to me.Accidentally,I enroll in the northwest polytechnical university finally.BYE-BYE.
英语没过4级,很多翻译不准确,谁能帮个忙.

最近过的好吗?我已经收到你的消息,我很抱歉没有回复,我甚至不知道自己怎么了.老实的说,我感觉后悔,失望,冷漠,你知道,在这个竞争激励的社会生存不是那么容易的,我尽一切努力做每件事,但是结果使我悲伤,在过去4年里,我花了很多时间在学习上并且取得了一些成绩,我必须感谢我所有的朋友,说实话,我不是很理解你,所以我不幸的失去了你,当我远离手推车（迷茫）的时候是那么想你,但是你一直那么敏感,从某种程度上天给予的,曾经我试图挽回我们的爱,最后我发觉没有意义所以我放弃了,对你来说我不是合适的人,你可能也不是我合适的人,我在后面,所以我花了很长的时间来忘记你,我自私吗?你多次告诉我忘掉不好的回忆,我做到了,因此我决定忘记你,但是每当我回忆的时候总会想起你,我该怎么办啊?你能告诉去吗?我想解决这个问题的最好办法就是不跟你联系在你不爱我以后,没有用的是吧?我不想再在这些琐碎上浪费我的时间,真烦,复杂,不可抵挡,我告诉我自己只要你在过去两年来找我我就改变想法,我发觉很可笑,荒谬,是时候说再见了.假如你要结婚了请通知我.我们不再需要联系了,对我们都不好,至少对我来说不好.偶然的,最后我被西北工业大学录取了,再见!,是中国人就不要整啥子外语嘛（楼主不要生气哈）