英语翻译Look back to these days,so many things happened.This is

英语翻译
Look back to these days,so many things happened.This is the last year of my college life,maybe I will end it in a special way.And I would like to review a little bit about myself.In the last several days,it really impressed me deeply.It’s ridiculous what the life shows me.The person I met,the fate I got,even the love I need,seems to be a strange circle around me.More and more pressure I received as the time is going on.Something about my family,my emotion,what’s more,my job.Luckily,I was enrolled by APL,though I don’t know how much I would be paid per month,even per year,I know that I will start a new life within a New circumstance,new colleagues,and a new way.
Digging into my heart,I still sacrifice a lot.Haer,I just wanna say sorry.I cannot turn around and reset up the back time.Nobody has the same heart with me and I don’t need and I don’t care.We should not have met at the first time,by the result of being destined a tragic ending.Having been becoming another one you think that I do,yes I really do.I don’t know why,but I have noticed that it just because of the reality.I know that I am without sensibility.I hate myself for all of what I’ve done and what I’ll do.No enthusiasm I find myself having,leads me fall into a deep confused hell that was arranged earlier in my life.The days we share,and the time we care,just as the shape of the moon shining below the water,when the clouds get around or the wind blow,they disappear.I still remember that when I look into the sky,I always find tear full of my eyes.Nothing it will be,just remembering after forgetting,receiving after losing,doing after undoing.
Feeling our minds goes against gradually.
Feeling the loneliness becomes clearly.
Feeling it’s hard for explaining calmly.
Feeling frailness expands greatly.
No cry and just hide.
No give and just give up.
No forever and just treasure.
No remember when they disappear.
Moonlight rises,all of missing silences.

回想这些天,发生了很多事.这是我大学生涯的最后一年,我可能将会以一种特殊的方式来告别它.我要稍微重新审视一下自己,过去那段时光给我的印象很深.生活展示给我的是荒谬的.我见过的人,经历过的命运,甚至是我需要的爱,就像一个奇怪的圆圈环绕在我周围.随着时间的流逝,我的压力越来越大.一些家庭和感情问题,还有工作.幸运的是,我加入了APL公司,尽管我不知道自己的月薪和年薪会是多少,但我知道我将会在一个新的环境开始一段全新的生活,新同事,新行业.
就我内心深处而言,我仍然牺牲了很多. haer,我只想说对不起,我不能让时光倒流,没人和我心灵相惜,而且我不需要也不在乎.我们开始就不应该相遇,也不会产生这注定悲剧般的结局.我愿意变成你想象中的那个人,是的,我真的愿意.不知道为什么,但我明白是因为现实.我知道我麻木了,我对自己做过的和将要做的一切感到厌恶,我发现自己已经不再有激情,这让我跌入地狱的深渊,一个早就在我的命运中安排好的.我们一起分享和关心的那段时光,就像水下闪烁的月光的形状,当乌云聚集,或是大风吹过,它们就消失的无影无踪.我仍然记得每当我仰望天空的时候,眼睛里都会噙满泪水.除了忘却后的记忆,失败后的感悟,毁灭后的行为,它什么也不是.
感觉我们的想法正渐渐疏远.
感觉孤独明显开始临近.
感觉这很难平静地解释.
感觉脆弱在剧烈膨胀.
没有哭泣,只有躲避.
没有面对,只有放弃.
没有永恒,只有珍视.
对他们的逝去没有记忆.
月光升起的时候,只有逝去的安静.