在线中文翻译英文I long to speak the deepest words I have to say to y

在线中文翻译英文
I long to speak the deepest words I have to say to you; but I
dare not, for fear you should laugh.
That is why I laugh at myself and shatter my secret in jest.
I make light of my pain, afraid you should do so.
I long to tell you the truest words I have to say to you; but I
dare not, being afraid that you would not believe them.
That is why I disguise them in untruth, saying the contrary of
what I mean.
I make my pain appear absurd, afraid that you should do so.
I long to use the most precious words I have for you; but I dare
not, fearing I should not be paid with like value.
That is why I gave you hard names and boast of my callous
strength.
I hurt you, for fear you should never know any pain.
I long to sit silent by you; but I dare not lest my heart come
out at my lips.
That is why I prattle and chatter lightly and hide my heart
behind words.
I rudely handle my pain, for fear you should do so.
I long to go away from your side; but I dare not, for fear my
cowardice should become known to you.
That is why I hold my head high and carelessly come into your
presence.
Constant thrusts from your eyes keep my pain fresh for ever.
--------Tagore
...我不需要那种拿在线翻译翻的答案。因为这段话是一朋友发过来的，我很茫然。不知道什么意思。虽然写了泰戈尔。但是不知道是哪里的话。麻烦找找。好吗。？

我想对你说我心最深处的话,但是我不敢,因为你也许会嘲笑.我轻视我的痛苦,害怕你也会轻视它,我嘲笑自己、在笑声中粉碎我的秘密.
我想对你说最真诚的话,但是我不敢,因为你也许不会相信,我觉得我的痛苦很荒谬,害怕你也会这样认为,我伪装起来,说违心的话.
我想用最美的词汇赞美你,但是我不敢,因为也许我得不到相应的回答,我对你冷言相向,吹嘘我的麻木,我伤害你,因为害怕你永远不知道伤痛的含义.
我想静静的坐在你身边,但是我不敢,以免不小心说出我的心里话,我与你闲聊,将我的心里话深藏.我粗暴的对待我的痛苦,害怕你也会这样.
我想远离你,但是我不敢,害怕你发觉我的懦弱,我骄傲的抬着头装作不经意地出现在你面前,你眼中的推拒神色让我的痛苦永远像新生的那样清晰.
乱翻翻好玩的,嘿嘿,不过意思应该差不太多!